Breaking All My Rules

'Cause the year 2009 is about to end...

2009-12-26T21:11:00.000-08:00

I copied this from http://chantilyfierce.blogonize.com , credit to Aya! :)

2009

1) BUDDY OF THE YEAR?
- um, idk. I can't think of anyone..

2) LIFETIME SERVICE AWARD (longest friend)
- my junior hs buddies, ageng & yogie

3) NEWCOMER AWARD (coolest new friend)
- My twitter friends! Aya, Carla, and Tamochi :)

4) HIGHEST POINT OF THE YEAR?
- wooh, idk. nothing's really excite me throughout the year

5) LOWEST POINT OF THE YEAR?
- no difference with above

6) BEST HOLIDAY
- visited my grandad and grandmom in Tasik! t'was fun :)

7) SONG FOR 2009
- I have to say, it's still Crush by David Archuleta. I know it's been more than a year, but so what..

8) BEST MOVIE FOR 2009
- So many good movies! But imma pick 2012 :D

9) WHO DID YOU SPEND VALENTINES WITH AND WHERE?
- nah, I don't do valentines. Just home, with my pc i guess.

10) WHAT WERE YOU FOR HALLOWEEN?
- I don't do halloween either. boring self huh?

11) RESTAURANT OF THE YEAR?
- Pepper Lunch, lol

12) KISS OF THE YEAR?
- I don't kiss

13) BEST DECISION MADE THIS YEAR?
- I don't really think about others anymore. I mean, I care of them and all, just not as much so there'll be less chance for them to hurt me, so will the opposite. if they need me to talk i'll definitely listen tho :)

14) WHAT ARE YOUR PLANS FOR NEXT YEAR?
- have to get the public university. mom would be happy :)

15) MOST STUPID IDEA WHEN DRUNK?
- nah ah

16) TV SHOW OF THE YEAR?
- Glee! :D

17) MOST LOYAL FRIEND(s)?
- well, a lot :)

18) HEARTBREAKER OF THE YEAR?
- dont wanna talk about it lol

19) BIGGEST CHANGE OF THE YEAR?
- put on braces? :3

20) NEW YEAR’S RESOLUTION?
- get slimmer!!

What did you do in 2000 that you’d never done before?
- I dunno. :-S

Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
- sometimes I don't even remember what my resolutions were hahaha

Did anyone close to you give birth?
- No

Did anyone close to you die?
- no! thank God

What countries did you visit?
- didn't go out of the country :(

What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
- the ability to play guitar! I ditched my guitar for months hahah

What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
- um, I don't really have one..

What was your biggest achievement of the year?
- nothing. Fail me -.-

What was your biggest failure?
- I was about to save my money for a vacation abroad with my friend, but I end up using them all, like, nothing left :P

Did you suffer illness or injury?
- if you mean something like flu, well then yeah

What was the best thing you bought?
- Blackberry <3

Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
- wooh, not gonna talk about them here :P

Where did most of your money go?
- Clothes and foods :(

What did you get really, really, really excited about?
- nothing, except if there'll be a david concert next year nearby

What song(s) will always remind you of 2009?
- Haven't Met You Yet - Michael Buble

Compared to this time last year, are you:

i.happier or sadder? — Sadder
ii. thinner or fatter? — consistent. fvck tummy :(
iii. richer or poorer? — Richer yayy :P

What do you wish you’d done more?
- Not getting into food too much!

What do you wish you’d done less of?
- jealous and lie about my feelings

How many one-night stands?
- hahahah

What was your favorite TV program?
- GLEE! but it wasn't showed on my tv :(

Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
- pissed yeah but not hate :)

What was the best book you read?
- Five People You Meet in Heaven

What was your greatest musical discovery?
- uh?

What did you want and get?
- a blackberry :D

What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
- I shopped like crazy hahah my favourite department store threw on a huge sale. i was 17 :D

What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
- If I didn't sign up for BTA -.-

How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
- wah, i don't know. just, anything cozy and describing me?

What kept you sane?
- David hahahah. no he drives me insane instead

Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
- David Archuleta and none others :)

What political issue stirred you the most?
- um, that KPK thingy.. I don't really understand though hehe

Who did you miss?
- umm, nobodyy :D

Who was the best new person you met?
- my twitter friends. haven't met them yet though :P

Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009:
- You have to stand up for yourself. Nobody gonna stands for you forever :)

What was the nicest thing someone told you about yourself:
- "I love you" though idk if they really love me or not hehehe

The most touching experience you’ve had this year?
- when my mom took a woman and her child from the street to our house. they haven't eaten anything for days and they couldn't go home cos they didn't have any money to pay their house rent :'(

What did you like most about yourself this year?
- I became myself :)

What did you hate most about yourself this year?
- I don't know how to show people that I care about them, so they end up thinking that I'm apathetic.

Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
- I just haven't met you yet!

Was 2009 a good year for you?
- yeap it was! fun year :D

What was your least favorite moment of the year?
- When I fought with my mom and not talking to her for almost a week :(

Where were you when 2009 began?
- here?

Who were you with?
- i don't remember

Where will you be when 2009 ends?
- hopefully i get to spend the new year in my friend's house. mom never let me :(

Who will you be with when 2009 ends?
- i dont know

Do you have a new years resolution for 2010?
- get the public university. then beg mom and dad so i might join a summer camp in the USA

What was your favorite month of 2009?
- november :)

Did you lose anybody close to you in 2009?
- yes, but i don't really care anymore hehe

Did you miss anybody in the past year?
- umm, no

How many concerts did you see in 2009?
- One. java jazz festival :D

Did you drink a lot of alchohol in 2009?
- wooh, mom's gonna kill me

Do a lot of drugs in 2008?
- no waayy

Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
- a lot hahaha. i put so much shame on myself -.-

How much money did you spend in 2009?
- a lottttttttttttttt

What was your proudest moment of 2009?
- i got great scores on my last term of the 11th grade :D

What was your most embarrassing moment of 2009?
- it's embarassing, why would i even tell?

If you could go back in time to any moment of 2009 and change something, what would it be?
- nothing. i'm happy as i could be :)

What are your plans for 2010?
- Studyyyyy till the university of indonesia get right in my hand

How are you different now that the year has ended?
- i'm just the same

What are your wishes for the new year?
- Happiness! :D

Mostly David, Sorry I Can't Keep My Promise

2009-12-18T01:22:00.000-08:00

Today, was a mix-up.

So, at 8:00 AM this morning Billboardlive.com showed David's concert in Roxwood LIVE! Live streaming! Can you imagine how excited I am as one of the unfortunate international fans? I was a happy lad. I spread the word since the night before, keep reminding fellow Indonesian fans to watch him in the morning, gave them the link, straight everything off when they ask whether it's a live show or not, and so on.
Then, in the morning, I woke up very early, which was at 6 AM, 'cause I didn't wanna miss such a chance. It was pretty early since I'm in a longgg vacation. So there I was, being a very good girl sitting in front of the computer about 1 and half hour before the show started. I opened up billboardlive.com, and there it said the show was about to start, stay tune. Okay, I did. I was really nervous (I didn't have any idea why should I). Then it started, but nothing appeared, they said I gotta download this microsoft silverlight thingy. Okay, I did. They told me to refresh the page. Okay, I did. Then I saw David wearing his usual plaid shirt (don't get me wrong, he looked so good) singing Waiting For Yesterday, I feel like I wanted to scream from the top of my lungs. But then, BAM! it went black. I got all panic. I refreshed the page over and over again. But it was just keep reconnecting, I only got to see David about a few sec before it all gone. It happened all the time. I almost cried. And I did, when he was singing O Holy Night. Mom almost caught me up, but whatever, she knew her daughter is a loony.

By the way, #davidarchuletalive was a trending topic on Twitter! YAY! :D

After the Billboard show, there we got David appear on this Univision channel, it's streaming too. But thank God it went all good. So smooth not like the dang Billboard. David sang Silent Night. Of course it's an awesomeage.

And now, I'm bored. No David. So I'm posting up a blog.
Thaathaaa.

Hello!

2009-12-16T08:09:00.000-08:00

Hellloooooooo xD It's been a longg time, like, LOOOOOONNNGGGGGG time since the last time I updated, or even visited. So I was just randomly to checked up my blogger account and got eww. So old-fashioned, lol, or whatever you wanna call it. It's like every post I did, were talking about David. P.S: I'm still a little, okay much, not over him. But let's just start everything all over. I'll try not to talk about David very much, okay? Just TRY. Don't put so much hopes on that, okay?

So, I got too lazy to keep up this blogging thingy haha. I'd prefer to write down on my journal, since David... okay, since someone said that writing on a journal is really cool. 'Cause when you look at it like years after, you'll be like, "whoa! so that time I was blabla.. I can't believe I was blabla!" yeah stuffs like that haha so it should be really fun. Well actually blogging does the same but it was just, you can't feel the same effort-or feeling-or whatever you say, when you're typing instead of writing. Well, at least that works for me haha.

Okay I don't really have so much to say for now, sooo, catch you all later! :D

Happy Belated David Day!

2008-11-12T04:54:00.000-08:00

Yaaay yesterday David's debut album was released, and heccckkk it was awesome! my favorite songs are... all. well but BARRIERS, TO BE WITH YOU, and YOU CAN seriously got special place on my heart haha. i listen to it like a ton, and never get bored (for sure)!

*singing*
Dashing to the store
its November 11th today
o’er to wal-mart i go
David’s cd is on display!
The FOD’er i am
I’ll buy like more than five
I can’t wait to hear and sing
all these songs tonight!

Oh! Touch my hand…barriers
a little too not over you!
you can see me
running desperate
just to be with you
Oh! don’t let go
your eyes dont lie
my hands works for me
let’s repeat
angels and crush
my ledge walking’s too much! Hey!

Downloading on Itunes
there’s four more bonus songs
just to hear that falsetto
i’d do the wiggle-o! Oh!

i’m waiting on yesterday
i’m falling-
let me go
somebody out there
please help me
I’m sick with O.D.D!

Oh! Touch my hand…barriers
a little too not over you!
you can see me
running desperate
just to be with you
Oh! don’t let go
your eyes dont lie
my hands works for me
let’s repeat
angels and crush
my ledge walking’s too much! Hey!

ahaha credit to FOD :)

sucks

2008-11-12T02:15:00.001-08:00

i've been wondering lately, what does FRIENDSHIP mean? if it means that we gotta listen to and be there for our bestfriends EVERYTIME they need us, then i think it's a huge bullshit. c'mon, i do hv bestfriends and love them so much but please, i got my own life! if they need me and i got other more important things to do then i'll choose my things to do! if they think im not a good BESTfriend then just dont be and leave me alone!

gosh this sucks.

ah barriers

2008-11-09T04:48:00.000-08:00

hey all i'm alive again haha. alright so the pics below were taken from elle magazine, the one with carrie underwood as the cover. it has top 10 idols photoshoot in it. and the girl who was holdin david is KRISTY LEE! she's soo amazingly pretty there!

okay, so for all of you who likes david's songs, i recommend you all to listen to his leaked albums. they were all in iTunes! my favorite is BARRIERS and TO BE WITH YOU. but i want you guys to listen to ALL of them. so go to youtube now and check out:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tEDCI-SGhfE (BARRIERS)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aHdzCFmIu6k (TO BE WITH YOU)

go to youtube.com for the rest of it. but for those who wanna wait till the album released on nov 11th, well its ok!

are these david james archuleta or i need to had my eyes checked?

2008-11-09T03:49:00.000-08:00

my tweeny pinchy huggy lovely ticklish little angel, where are you?
have u transformed?
or my eyes went wrong?
or am i on my way to heaven?

ARE THESE DAVID JAMES MAYORGA ARCHULETA?

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OH MY MOTHER OF EVERYTHING HOLY..

i used to dislike his 'hot style' and prefer the cutie ones but these ones gaaah LOVE IT..

please excuse me when i'm died..

my birthdaay (its kinda long haha)

2008-11-07T17:38:00.000-08:00

heyy everyone! haah i just got time to do blogging thingy again. ok so 6th november was my birthdaayy yaay xD! It was a BLAST! in the morning i received like a ton of textes wishing me a happy birthday :) thanks guyss! and the best part, my mom came home bringing an Opera cake with david's photo on it! the photo was sooo hug-gish, pinch-ish, gaah just adorable! thanks mom i love you :) then i caught up for school, and there was my chairmate, tika, gave me a popstar magazine with a hugeeeeee david poster inside! the poster was the one with the pic when david was hosted TCA. ah love it! x) then on school break, my classmates celebrate my birthday by brought me a cake and sang happy birthday! well its not just my birthday, my other classmate also born on the same day with me but different year haha. so yeah my classmates celebrate our birthday, not just mine teehee, but its cool though! but i still was felt like something was missing. none of my close friends in the 10th grade congrate me, they even didnt wanna talk to me, like i've done somethin really bad and unforgiveable :( but oh well i didnt really think about it. its ok if they dont wanna be friends to me and its also ok if they do! but things were just getting worse and gosh i couldnt take it so i texted my mom to pick me up and i went home earlier and skipped economy lesson. yeah there was still one lesson left but so what? (so what, i'm still a rockstar, i got the rockin moves.. whoops random singing lol) alrightyy, so when i got home, ageng, one of the best fella ever (yeah, read this and she'll make a freakin fun on me haha but oh well..) gave me a huge david poster which she made by herself (a lil help from her friend karen though i believe haha). my maid said her driver sent it to my house right after i left for school! the poster was david's pic with white clothes up to toes, and it says "fire in the winter, showers in the spring, we'll fly through the fall and summer" yeah baby, the lyric of LONGER! ahh sweet xD and she also gave me a mug with david cartoon pic on it! the one while he was licking his lips OMDAA LOVE IT!
then after i hooked up with all the david stuffs for a while i went to cinema with my family and watch High School Musical 3! aaw i've been waiting for it! (GO WILDCATS! haha) the movie was pretty good, yet boring and funny at the same time haha. the part when troy fell while was in the basketball game then gabriella suddenly stood up and shouted 'TROOOYY!' then she sang, omda i thought it was the funniest part! nobody laughed except me and a random person who was sitting behind me, we were rofl-ing! haha dumbb. but i love the movie! well i'm 16 but i still addicted to disney's like hannah montana, wizards of the waverly place, suite life of zack and cody, etc. uh idk whats wrong with me! :(
fine, that's it for wednesday. the next day, i went to school as usual which is pretty boring lol. and my 10th grade friends still didnt wanna talk to me which was kinda sad, but i still got lots of other friends so whatever. but the best surprise came on my 2nd school break. i was helping my classmate on doing her art work, when suddenly my 10th grade classmates appeared up and walked in to my class, bringing this huuge blackforest cake with candles also and singing happy birthday! omda i was dazed, surprised and cried of course! guess what? they punked me on these 2 days for my birthday! then i hugged them all, crying, and was like, 'but my birthday was yesterday you all moron!' and they were like 'yeah but yesterday lika (one of them) didnt come up for school, and you went home earlier also! you almost ruined up our surprise plan u know!' ohh now i got it and i apologized to them. and they said actually they wanted to make me cry first, and throw the surprise with comin to my house on saturday but okky (one of them also) cant go cuz her sister would have a surgery on that day so she needs to accompany her, oh my i hope the surgery goes well :( and also they knew that i would never cry on something isnt related to david! haha. anyway, THANKS A TON GUYS, you guys are the best in punked me, making fun on me, but also surprising me :')
ahh great birthdaay, best ever! thanks to mom&dad, for the amazing cake. thanks to ageng for the lovely poster and mug, tika for the poster and magazinee, thanks to my classmates for the surprise, okky lika memey fanny tika ucil and every single person of my 10th grade class for the 2nd blasting surprise! to my bigg familyy for the fantastic partaaay! and also to everybody who wished me happy birthday, cant mentioned you all one by one but still, thanks a ton!
I LOVE YOU ALL WHOLEHEARTEDLYY xoxoo

PEOPLE, help me!

2008-10-17T04:42:00.001-07:00

my ODD (Obsessive David Disorder) is getting worse! okay, 'press' the 'worse' word, cuz when i said worse, it really did! my friends started to being victims of my ODD-ness. like, i kinda didnt care abt them when i was hookin up with my david stuffs like browsing, etc. they kinda annoyed and didnt wanna share their stories to me anymore cuz they think i wouldnt even listen! gosh, swear, i didnt mean to! uh, guys pls understand, when im 'with' david probably i wont even find out if there's an earthquake!
im thinkin abt goin to psychiatrist (im serious!) to get a help about my ODD-ness.
uh and THE REAL PROBLEM is, now my friends r also gettin annoyed with david! when i started to open up a convo abt him, like i was just abt to say 'david ar...' they would be like 'oh please' and just rollin their eyes :( oh and this morning i kinda had a fight with my friend, cuz i didnt take the phone when she called me last night, well honestly i didnt even hear the phone rang! GUESS WHAT? yeah, i was fillin up my david book with the list of david's favorite songs. and the bad thing is my friend was HEAPLY needed me, i wasnt there for her, cuz of david :( well its not his fault! its mine! nobody could ever blame him cuz if they did i'll just rip their head off and... ARH LOOK I STARTED IT AGAIN! x(
okay now ive apologized with my friend, though i think she hasnt fully forgiven me yet, but at least now she wanna talk to me. but well, this afternoon in her car i mentioned david and she was like 'ehem!' like she didnt wanna hear a single thing abt him :( uh and today i also am arguing with one of my other friend cuz she said david has flat nose! we debated for abt half an hour BCUZ OF NOSE!

i know david is NOT anyone for me, he doesnt even know me. but oh well i love him way TOO MUCH, what am i gotta do? :(

2008-09-08T22:05:00.000-07:00

NOW DAVID IS REALLY MY ONLY ONE, NOBODY IN THIS WHOLE WORLD MAY BOTHER OUR HAPPINESS :p

that david james archuleta, who has those eyes which can make you melt. that voice which u can only find the similar one in heaven. and that sweetness which can turn anger to laugh and sadness to happiness.

I LOVE YOU DAVID, BOO, ARCHULETTUCE, ARCHUDORABLE ARCHIE, MY CRUSH FOREEEEVER XD

PANIC AT THE DISCO

2008-08-17T18:55:00.001-07:00

aaaaaaaaawwwwwww so i went to patd concert last night with 4 of my friends and it was INCREDIBLELY AWESOME! idk anything abt their music though, i went there bcuz my friend forced me to lol. ok, we arrived at tennis indoor senayan at 6.30, then we exchanged the ticket, got checked and stuffs. when they all done we looked around 4 souvenirs, heck yeah there's a really2 cool patd tees! i just abt wanna to buy it, but when i knew the price is 250000, i TOTALLY changed my mind, teehee :p so we decided to take some photos then walked through the fest gate. it was just only 6.30 and the show starts at 8 but there r already bunch of people there! then we searched for some nice positions to get great view for the stage, but no used :/ taller people covered our sight! sigh. then we kept searching when there more people to came in. people gone wild and started to push each other. i got seperate frm my friends, seriously, i need air, water, i even felt like 'I NEED TO GET THE HECK OUT OF HERE', i really2 wanted to cry cuz i thought i was goin to die there. okay then room gone black and the changcuters as the opening act came out and sang 'racun dunia', people got even wilder and they jumped up and down enjoying the music, i wanted too but i cant. i couldnt even move!! and those stupid people jumped and stepped AT MY TOES. and they had no idea abt it eventhough i yelled at them. poor my toes :(
but well the changcuters is cool and also dang funny! i kinda like them! But we were there to watch panic so people started call 'PANIC,PANIC,PANIC...' yeah like that. at 8.45 the changcuters went out of the stage. the room was getting hotter and i felt like dehidrated. the java musikindo crews gave us some water but it wasnt enough cuz we need to share to others. people got even wilder cuz now they were fighting to get more water, then i was like 'ok i couldnt hold this anymore' so i asked one of my friend to get out frm there. when we were just done our first step, room gone black again and YEP, there, the greatness, PANIC AT THE DISCO. of course we wanted to get out nomore :p and OMGG, ryan ross is so cutee! ive never seen anybody cuter here in indonesia! and brendon urie looked like the guy who all the girl wanna marry with lol. the concert went awesome, patd was also friendly and had good communication with the audience. and imo they were so happy to come here, i could tell it from their smile xD
at 10 pm all the personels went out of the stage and all the audience was yelled like 'WE WANT MORE! WE WANT MORE!' and they came up to the stage again and doin an encore. HAAAAH THAT WAS AWESOME, im so gonna buy their cd after all these!
hmm i think thats enough, if u'd like to hear more just gimme a call, a'right? :p

I WAS BORN TO BE PANIC xD

long one hehe

2008-08-13T04:23:00.001-07:00

here's my story of the day. okay, it was around 10 a.m and im havin my first break then i went to my friend's class, well to just chatting, jokin around and askin for their food cuz ive finished mine and i was still hungryy lol. then i talked to one of my friend abt him, hw he didnt text me almost for a week and etc. then like others, she was like 'just go text him first it wont kill u anyway!' i was like 'heck no' then she was like 'ok up 2 u. if u want the condition to keep on like this' then i shutted up and thinkin for some moments, then 'uh ok ill try'. then the bell rang and i ran back to my class again then taking my cp and wrote a text 4 him but when i just abt to click 'send' i was losing up my braveness (or bravery? ah whtvr lol sorry 4 my sucks english) so i was just keep on lookin at my cp's display and do nothing, then my chairmate came 'wht r u doin?' then i was like 'um i was just abt to text him but.. uh.. idk if its a good idea' then she was like 'OH PLEASE' then she tried to grab away my cp but i held it, so it came to a lil cp fighting here lol and unfortunately she won :/ then she clicked 'send' to my unsent text 4 him then i was like 'OMG IM SO GONNA KILL U!' and she was like 'hey! u were abt to texted him too but if i didnt do something it would end up in the drafts!' then she keeped up my cp and didnt wanna give it back to me, she said somebody gotta take care of my cp because if it kept me who holdin it i wouldnt pay any attention to the class and just lookin hopelessly at my cp waiting 4 him to text back. kay i admit she was right lol. alright and it was around 11 a.m and he didnt text me back. i kinda felt my anger come and i said 'hw could he be this mean 2 me?!' and my chairmate said 'chill out, its nw only 11 a.m and hes hving the test. give him times till 1 p.m' then i was like 'ok 1 p.m, more than that then i would never ever talk abt him again' then we talked abt these random things like singing 4 minutes by madonna and JT abt 4 minutes bfore 1 p.m, and wondering if he texts back late abt 25 minutes after 1 p.m we'll sing 25 minutes by MLTR, but we changed the lyrics 2 be like this 'boy i miss ur textes, all the time but this is 25 minutes too late' okay it was eeeww, we were gone crazy LMABO.
then it was 12 p.m and he still wasnt replying and i was like stressed out and one of my boy friend talked abt 'deathnote' with me and i was like 'alright, if i had that freakin deathnote i'll put his name on the first line of the first page' and he was like 'umm? who? (PIIPP-sensoredd)?' and i nodded and laid my head on the table and really2 not in the mood 2 do anything. then my chairmate said 'okay, 4 liftin ur mood up, lets just see these..' then she saw me the cesc fabregas photos slideshow from her cp. and i hv to admit that fabregas is too hot 2 be ignored lol. well it worked and my mood was liftin up, a bit (next time try with david's, pal! lmabo) then there it came, i saw a really2 ADORABLE fabregas' pic. swear, it was major hotness. he looked dang inviting, amazingly amazing, and whatever. i freaked out and was like 'GOSH, I GOTTA HV THIS PIC' so i was abt to send that pic to my cp, so i took my cp and there was 1 NEW MESSAGE. and yea, frm him xD
i got freakin out more and showed it to my chairmate and she was like 'look! i was right! okay its half an hour before 1 p.m so we dnt hv to sing that stupid song lol' then yeah, we texted each other. my friends were right, its not a mistake to text first. just take a risk. thats the only way 2 get wht u want :)

whoaaaaaa this one is loong xD

BOREDOM

2008-08-11T19:42:00.000-07:00

daang im boreedd. im feeling not good today in school after the sport class :/ it was raining and the teacher still forced us, uhhh i hope i wont be sick, tomorrow theres an economy teest :(
kay that was really2 unimportant but im bored so wht else can i do? :/

OH MY DAVID

2008-08-11T02:20:00.000-07:00

aaarh, i misss him! he hasnt texted me for 3 days x( saaaaaaddd. everybody keep sayin "why dont u text him first?" seriously guys, HECK NO. ive done it twice and THATS SOOO ENOUGH, not bcuz i keepin my praise or whatsoever but it was just not my style to make a move to any of my crush, include HIM no matter hw much i like him gaaaaaaaaah.

ok enough for heck crush, now speakin abt my real babyyyyy ehehe. its been a looong time i havent logged on to af from computer. ^dang my computer, dang the internet, dang everything related!!^ ok so i looked up to couples of new pics and OH MY GOOOOSH, now my cutie definitely turns to hottie! seriously, that kayak thingy with jason reaaaaally did make his body (^cough^ ^cough^)chest(^cough^) and so did his (^cough^ ^cough^)belly(^cough^) LMABO
ohha and also that hazel eyes... that killing look... definitely make me melt... then heart started to beat, slowly... then comes to fastly... then all turns to excited... then the libido things-WHHHOOOOOOOPPSSSSSS now stop loooll xp

one of them (soorrryyy just oneee, i wont post all thouggh, theyre mineeeee loll):

IM DYING GUYS...

2008-08-09T07:49:00.001-07:00

okay so today me and my jhs' friend had an archie-related conv or i'll describe it as an ODD moment lol. okay we were just talkin abt p!atd concert when suddenly it came to david (as always) lolll. well here it is:

me: blahblah well thats too bad.. hv u listened to crush anyway? (i held not to talk abt david for 30 minutes! whoaa thats miracle lol)
her: umm not yet i lost the link to it
me: just search it in google u'll find itt!! ^excitedd^
her: hmm okay. can i download it?
me: yeaaaah sureee!
her: ok great (i think she was getting a bit annoyed ehehe)
me : u really hv to listen to it GOSH, SWEAR its incrediblely good!!
her : ok i know
me : heey anyway do u knw any toothpaste labeled crest??
her : umm no, why?
me : its DAVID'S TOOTHPASTEEE OMGGG!!
her : ohh, ah i think i knew it! i used it while i was in uk
me : OMGGG seriously??
her : yeah, crest, isnt it?
me : yess!! Omgggg do u still hv any of it lefttt?!
her : for the sake of God, no i dont and if i do its still since 2002!
me : like i caaareee its still david's!
her : whatever
me : do u knw any of international supermarket here in indonesia?
her : mm branch market at pim
me : GOSH, okay im gonna go there lookin for crest!
her : omgg THATS SO EAGER OF U!
me : weeell, u know mee hehe.

LOL. Thats so random, just thought to share :D

2008-08-07T20:05:00.001-07:00

guyys, well this is just like abt umm 9.45 am but i really want to post this! this is importaaaant (umm ok at least for me it is)
well there's an account on fb that claimed that it is david's, and its his friend named malcom that taking care of his profile. okay i kinda believe so i added them. and yesterday their status changed from 'single' to 'married' to someone named brittanyy umm whoever. GOSH, hw shocked i was! then i started to cry but my friend told me that that account is fake! now im so confused, cuz from wht i heard david doesnt hv any personal facebook account, he only has the official one. i really force myself to believe this statement, i cant, i havent ready yet to accept the reality if david does hv a gf! but well, im quiet sure that it is fake. Fake FAKE FAKE ^keep prayingg^

confused

2008-08-07T03:46:00.001-07:00

i hung up the phone tonight
something happened for the first time deep inside..
it was a rush, what a rush
cuz there's possibility, that u would ever feel the same way abt me..

OKAY, cant even start posting without crush lol. you gott me craaaazy david. anyway, speaking abt crush, i DO hv a crush. eheem okay if ure getting tired with me heeyy just chill out cuz he's not david ehee. u gotta know that david isnt my crush, he is my trueeee lovee lol okay well i mean, this is a true crush, which is in the real life. i mean, david is a dream, no matter hw much i love him and im so gonna do everything for him, he's still a DREAM ^sigh^
But this guy, which im not gonna ever mention his name here, is real. he's a friend of mine. he's so kind and sweet and i like him A LOT, just, wht i hate abt him is he has never shown up his true feelings to me. sometimes i could see he's kinda like me too but not in some other times. i hv never been dating anyone bfore (SEE? just like david omg we really match each other yaaaaaayy lol) so i dont really get abt all the dating stuffs, how 2 know whether a guy had a crush on u or not and so on. swear, im so stupid on that. my friends keep telling me that he's kinda like me but i dont believe it.....yet. well, at least until he tells me abt that by himself.

do you ever think? when ure all alone
all that we can be, where these things could go?

started with crush, ended too lol

CRUSH

2008-08-02T00:22:00.000-07:00

Hey all, been a long timeeeeee since the last time i wrote, eh or even visited any blogger things :)

i'm soo glad cuz david's first single was just came out. the title is "crush" and oh em geeeee its incredibely good! the first time i listened to it i was like....

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*dies*

ok then i listened to it again and im alive again yaaaaaaayyyyyyy look david, you're such an angel ehh??
heeey IM ALIVE?! ok if i didnt really die then i was dying, but thank God u still keep me alive and please dont kill me yett, give me the chance to meet my 'crusher' david
*sobss sobss, praaay*

ok joking thats lame but whatever i really cant think straight right now! david was just ruined up my brain! *danger alert!* *danger alert!* 1...2...3... BUUMMMMMMPPPPPP!

EHEM okay enough, back on track lol i swear i wasnt saying these just because he's my angel though he truly is teehee BUT really, this song is awesome. it sounds like disney stars song but heey i love disney so so what? hehe. and disney songs are always awesome as addition! ok here's the link, there you can listen to the song and there's the lyric too!

http://z100.elvisduran.com/pages/news/davidarchuleta/#

aaaaahhhhhhh do you ever thing when you're all alone, all that we can be, where this thing can gooooooo?

*slap slap slap slap slap*
DAAAANG ITTTT GUUYYSS helppppppp meeeeeee i cant stop listening to this! it's like addicting and definitely poisoning my brain cuz my brain always play that song and rewind it again and again eventhough im not even listening to it! BUZZ BUZZ xO
gaaaaah david james look what you've done to this poor little young girl! *sobs sobs*

Friendship

2008-02-09T02:33:00.000-08:00

gue nemu foto poldi sama basti lucu banget dehh. ngiri gue, ngeliat mereka. masih ada ya 'this kinda friendship' di dunia yang udah kotor, ancur dan bahlul ini..

itu kira2 basti lagi cari apa yaa di kantong jaketnya poldi? hehe. waktu itu gue pernah nemu orang yang ngatain mereka berdua gay. dasar tolol. bilang aja tu orang ngiri, karena ga pernah punya sahabat sedeket itu, sampe kayak poldi-basti gitu! sumpah gue ga kebayang kalo salah satu dari mereka pindah klub, walopun demi kebaikan karir masing-masing.

But friendship or career, which is more important?

semua orang baik di dunia ini (lebih tepatnya yang merasa baik) bakal menjawab friendship, tapi dari kenyataan yang ada, semua jelas cuman 'ucapan' semata, karena ga mau dianggap egois, jahat, atau apalah. bukannya gue nganggep diri gue ga egois, gue pribadi bakal ngejawab friendship, walopun gue ga tau gimana ke depannya.
gini loh contohnya, bukannya gimana, tapi sebagai contoh, waktu kita perpisahan SD sama SMP. sedih2an banget kan? dan banyak banget kata2 "gue ga akan ngelupain lo..", "kita terus kontak ya", "gue bakal kangen banget sama lo", dan smacemnya. tp pas kita uda masuk sma dan ngejalanin hidup baru, kita seakan udah lupa sama sekali sama perasaan kita pas perpisahan itu kan? malah ada yang udah ga kontak sama sekali, semua mulai ngejalanin kehidupan "i take care of myself, and you of yours" atau lebih sering kita kenal dengan "elo elo, gue gue"

No offense. gue bukannya nyindir orang yang udah lupa persahabatan ato gimana, tapi gue ngomong jujur, karena gue sendiri juga ngerasain hal itu. makanya gue ngiri banget ngeliat poldi sama basti, yang sahabatan deket banget, walopun mereka beda klub (dulu poldi di FC Cologne, basti di FC Bayern Munich) gue juga pengen kayak gitu! tapi ya gimana, susah. kalo kita uda lama ga ketemu, ga kontak, pas tiba2 ketemuan, itu pasti ada rasa canggung kan? cara kita ngeliat 'mantan' sahabat kita itu bakal beda banget dari yang dulu.

maaf yaa kalo post-an gue ga penting! wakaka.

i hope you REALIZE liebe SENIOR

2008-02-04T18:43:00.000-08:00

gue ga tau deh. belakangan ini kok jadi suka banget sama sastra. tadi aja gue nyari2 quote-nya william shakespeare di google. quotes-quotesnya gila banget. kata-katanya ketinggian!

haduuh. gue pengen ikut les di goethe deh. sialann pendaftarannya udah tutup! bau ni ah. baru dibuka lagi sekitar bulan juni-juli. kering kering dah gue nungguinnya! ;(
eh gue suka deh cerita SALAD DAYS yang tentang Kawamura Futaba sama Kamiyama Yuuki! ceritanya simpel tapi daleemm x) lucu lagii. aaaiih.

oh iya. sh*t bgt deh. rahasia meede nya belom dibalikin! gue kan belom selese baca dan itu lagi seru-serunya! bagi yang NGERASA give me the h*ll back my "RAHASIA MEEDE"!!! well, it's not mine, it's naiia's ;p. tapi DIAMBIL atas nama gue! taik lo bangke! sok disiplin, sok menegakkan keadilan! if you read that novel CAREFULLY, you'll know that it has NO minus things inside!! jadi gue pikir, TOLOL banget kalo ngambil barang orang tanpa DITELUSURI dengan otak! or, you don't have any? well, i doubt you have it, unsere liebe SENIOR.
so was with my "Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows" ENGLISH VERSION. kalo sampe ilang, ato rusak, gue tuntut lo, give me 350 thousand rupiahs, not IN CASH, but in NOVEL. the same one!

today

2008-02-04T01:02:00.000-08:00

God.. i got a flu, bad one. sigh. i'm not going to school today, and missed 2 tests! shoot.
Man, my throat really really feels bad. i don't know if i can go to school tomorrow or not.
but today is not that bad. lukas podolski just got fit after his back injury. it's okay if i'm sick, and he's not. so he can play for germany in the match against austria on wednesday. then he has chance to score, and if he will, it'll make my body feels much much better! haha. hummh... he's truly my everything =)

i heard maroon 5 will have a concert here, oh my, i really wish it'll really happen! they are the best band on earth! for me, hahaha. they'll maybe come on april, and in may, bayern (maybe) will come! i mean, they're planning to. oh, my. if that all really happen, 2008 will be simply the best year!

trying

2008-02-02T03:02:00.000-08:00

honestly, there's nothing I need to tell you all. I just wanna check, can I post my blog in my computer? it has just broken.
ok, let me give it a try..

i don't know what should i give for the title

2008-01-27T23:17:00.001-08:00

guess what? me and my friend made a 'dream conversation' between us and our 'dream boys'. it's kinda cool u know. i'd love to make it as a novel, hehe. and in my novel, the main character would be me! ahaha. but i'm not using my real name of course.

haah. i'm so bored. there r a lot of things i really wanna do right now. check out my list:
1. visit goethe. its library
2. have a course there
3. have a course in the british institute
4. watch the euro 2008 matches together with my friends
5. visit 'warung warso' in setiabudi again (the food is damn good!)
6. get my 'harry potter and the deathly hallows' english version back
7. visit all the museums in jakarta (i really don't know what the hell is happening to me!)

and 'what i wanna buy' list:
1. Sony Ericsson w910i
2. IPod
3. Sony camera T100
4. Nintendo wii

yeahha thats all. the problem is, none of them i've already got! sh*t.

man, i'm in the warnet right now, and 2 hours later i have to be in the castle burger, a friend'll be waiting for me there. shit, the internet's connection here is taking such a long time! really really annoying. hey.. uhuu. look in front of me. there are men, businessmen, i guess. hahahaha i know u won't understand what the hell am i talking about.
God.. i have a headache. i wasn't planning to go to this warnet though. i took an 'ojek' and i said "ke McD bang.." but the 'abang' took me to in front of this warnet, beside McD. so i decided to visit here. huhh. (i know all i said were just shit and really really not important things. sorry... hhe)

mein liebe lukas podolski

2008-01-24T00:58:00.000-08:00

heran dah gue sama bayern. poldi dimaenin kaga, mau dibeli city ga boleh, mau dipinjem juga ga boleh. yang ada dia cuman disuruh bengong di bangku cadangan. ngeces2 ngeliatin klose sama si (sial) toni. that damn italian who took lukas' place.

tapi tadi gue baca berita. si bayern kok kesannya sayang gitu sama poldi. here's the news:

Lukas Podolski has made 16 competitive appearances for Bayern so far this term, but only three over the full 90 minutes. Neither can the striker be satisfied with his tally of just two goals, both in the UEFA Cup. “I need to have a good, hard think about what I should do next – and where,” he himself was recently quoted as saying, but any thoughts of a switch away from Munich, potentially before the current transfer window closes just over a week, have now been put on ice.

“I had a very good talk with Lukas today on this very subject and informed him that we can’t let him leave Bayern, because we need him for the future,” Karl-Heinz Rummenigge told the sid sports news agency on Tuesday. “We’re convinced by Lukas Podolski’s quality, and we’ll enjoy a great deal of success together.“

Sympathy for the player

The chairman has thus thrown his full weight behind the coaching staff. Boss Ottmar Hitzfeld has always insisted the club could not afford to release any player in mid-season, especially not a forward: “We only have four strikers, and things can change incredibly quickly.“ Added assistant coach Michael Henke: “We need Lukas. He’s a very important player here.“

However, officials have expressed understanding for Podolski’s predicament. “I’d love to let him go and play regular football,” Uli Hoeneß admitted ahead of Tuesday evening’s warm-up fixture in Düsseldorf, aware of Podolski’s yearning to press his international claims ahead of Euro 2008 by performing consistently at club level. “But if one of the others gets injured, we’d be in deep trouble.“

Backing from Löw

Germany boss Joachim Löw is standing by Podolski. “Our view at the German FA always was that Lukas should and would stay. He should push for the breakthrough, and I know that’s his goal,” the national coach was quoted as saying by the Munich Abendzeitung. Löw said the Bayern striker had recently assured him “he’d do everything he could to hit peak form. Lukas knows he’ll be part of the set up here, provided he continues to show the right attitude and gets some playing time.“

nah kan. tambah bingung aja gue sama jalan pikirannya bayern... ckckck..

How could I ?

2008-01-13T00:33:00.000-08:00

why did I born in Asia??? this is such my regret, to BORN HERE! okay, it's not really a problem though, I have wonderful friends and family here, and the foods' good. that I maybe wouldn't have if I born in Germany. But that's just maybe. another possibilities is maybe I would had lot better life than here. I mean, look at me. almost everday I say, "Oh God.. I wish I'm in Germany." But look at the Germans. do they EVER said, "Mein Gott.. I wish I'm in Indonesia." DO THEY??? everybody knows the answer of course. well, I'm happy to be here in Indonesia. But still, I WANT GERMANY!!

is there anybody can show me the way to get there? FREE? cost nothing? i hear almost the same answers all the time. get the scholarship. okayy guys... I KNOW! it's just, how could I? I even usually leave my homework undone. now they asked me to find scholarship? it's definitely IMPOSSIBLE!!

alright, another way. find someone with fairy's heart to give you a free vacation there. IDIOT. even if they're really rich, they won't give an unknown person free vacation. the only way is I must save my money, to have a vacation there. okay darla. going to germa needs about 30 millions rupiah!! how long must I save my money? i'm not that socialite girl who shops in Versace, Gucci, and D&G every week!! well, they're not my favourite brand though, mine is Adidas. hehe. okay, back to the point. somebody.. please give this innocent 15th girl some money to meet her true love! (true love, huh? oh come on..)

speaking about true love. maybe some people think that i'm just a big fan of lukas podolski. well, it's not like that! i don't know what kinda feeling this is. it's just different with a just fan feeling! i mean, look, when raussend (my crush's fake name) had a girlfriend, i didn't even cry!! i was just said, "oh.. okay, then. so what?" see? it's not really a problem to me! but when i heard that lukas' gonna have a baby, and he'll become a father soon, and perhaps he'll marry monica in this close times, i felt like, oh mein Gott... so what am I gonna live for? i mean, my dream is about to going to Germany, to meet him, to be his girlfriend (okay, I know it's kinda silly). and a second after i read that news, my heart felt like crashed, stabbed, stepped, and whatever you call that. i cried over. serious. and when he became a substitute in bayern and the national team. i started to blame the coach, the team, the management, another bayern's striker, and others! I'm totally angry for him. it's not just and anger, you know. but it came from my deepest heart! and it even could make my day bad! well, it's riddiculus! i haven't even meet him! maybe you think i'm such a crazy fan. it's okay, i don't care about your thought. what i wrote here is simply my true feelings.